gO fOr the guy whO loves u mOre den u love him

haRLew~!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-27T12:39:00.000-08:00

mUahaha..harlew ppL..i noe i noe.so long i nv update ryts??now updated..happy??hehex.bbl sorang aku ni.hehe..sorry uh peeps.my cOmp's dOwn..n im at my mom's fren's hse now..bLoggin..owyts..how's my life??haish..sad to say..ppl r losin their trus in me..one after one..oh yah..nk amek kesempatan...to dos peeps hu thOt ive gOt feelings for syarif or acap or WHOEVER..PLZ PLZ PLZ...GET E RIGHT FACTS FIRST...kauz...c'mon la ppl..i dun fall in love easily k..kalo aku nk c arep tu..dari dulu la...kalo acap??dulu pun aku accept...but nOoooo..they r just like my brO[s]..they treat me like their lil sis okies.....plz hOr..jgn tuduh2..jgn jump to conclusion..kesian org tu jugak.tk psl2,org marah dier jugak...wt*.....n yar...im glad tO say now that...between me n syed osman...that jerkass...is tOtally oVer.he dunno me,i dunno him...he;s my ex..so wad?!!i respect him.treat him like my own bro..but too badz..he's changed..he's hurt me enuff kies...just buzz off...dun let me see ya face again...thanx..if u think u can b 'jerky'..well i can be 'bitchy' too..way more bitchy..but i aint that type....hush~!!!
oh yeah...how's mr phat??wanna nOe??he shaved his head off!!!urgh!!oi oi konon!!!bleahXx!!hahaz..we had a tiff few days back but we're ok now..thanx to ME!!!shessh...im oways givin in..actuali..i noe how to lembutkan hati dier..bab tu...member sensitip uh..mcm aku jugak...hehez..
26March2005..was a memoriable date..y?coz we had a show at kak nad's cousin's wedding..hahaz..not just that la...aini,fi,ju,sari n even kak nad sabo-ed me to sing.da nyanyi srg tkpe...dey asked me to duet wif this guy...ard 19+ uh...n the great thing is i dunno him,he dunno me...:p..but i guessed he reali braved himself to ask me to sing another sg wif him..hahaz...jeles pompuan tu yg duet ngan dier....:p...he can sing..n ppl...he is the FIRST outsider to duet with me..seriously..i only duet wif my dad or uncle..nOt even my cousins k....so..i salute him n myself..ahahaz...[sandarkan pada kenangan]..fewitt!!!hahakz..nowae thanx girls for makin me sing wif him....*winks*..we sang e last sg,mainan cinta....den he went back n so did we...awww...fi said he took a last glance at me...wen he was puttin on his helmet.i looked back but din smile lar...e makciks2 der like lookin at me one of a kind arady....so and then....his name is..Isa...pronounce it as..[E-se]...ahahahakz....vroom vroom~~..bye iSa!!!!ahahahaakz....kekek uh..
SYF's in 2 weeks time....gonna b reali busy..so paham2 uh ehk.....k la..till here,,wanna do my art...chavious!!!!

2004-12-22T23:37:00.000-08:00

hey yo..im bloggin now.after sum tym yeah.im at maman's hse now.juz got back from tm wif yas,man,huda n izza.mish dis peeps sho much.we took pix at pretty in tokyo den wen to eat at KFC..yumzz..we talked,laughed..kekek sak..hahaz..haish..der's so much to blog abt..shud i??..okok..i will..hahaz...

18 Dec 04
i wen to eat at dwntwn east with mom,dad,yayul,ain n 2 of my dad's fwens...nnn..guess hu i so?!?!?!shadeS!!!!oh gosh..he n frens was sittin behind e table we were sittin at..how sure i am dat was him??his clothes n his eyes..remember?i saw him w.out his shades at e hiphop fest..every feature is e same...well if dats not him..at least i saw summone hu looks like shades..shades 2 lar..oh bother..hahaz..okokiess..i wen hm after eatin.yadayada...

19dEc04
rewang!! wen merewant at izza's aunt's..it was fun.the weddin was superb.wen well..all pink..pinkey..nice..e guys was ignorant..except for a few.zaki looks like achik sia..hahaz.among em..i was "attracted" to arif!!!ahahakz..his name was arif.found out after e whole thing ended..nice guy..from yeah..hahaz..but..hanya memuji jek..mwahaha..he's cute.me n yas exchanged email add..mwawahaha..den after dat we wen tm,took pix.yadayadayada...den alek..so tiring lar..haish.........

20dEc04
wEeee~!!!wen to escape theme park wif my cuz n my lil bro...had to pay for yayul.used my kendarat money..grrr!!hahaz..nvm..we had fun..alpha 8 was great n so was rainbOw...wee!!frm e 3 of us it became 5 of us..shasha's fren n bro joined us.jumpe secara tak sengaje..=D..we spent like 2 hrs der...i was tired la..pening..ok la..dats for dis date...oh yar..we saw danial from kids central at e mrt station!!!youz....he sho cute....ahahaz..,,chavious

21dEc04
wen to circus at D'Marquee wif yayul.guess hu i saw..najib n fwens der..tak sangka eh dier pegi tgk show camtu..kekek uh dier....okies.after e show,we wen to e beach..met papa den p mkn kat dwntwn eASt.dis tym i saw thaqif..he so different...yadayadayada..cik amid n family was wif us...not kecoh la..so boring..hahaz...kk..enuff

oryts ppl..actuali der's more to tok abt..but lazy to wryt lar..ahaha.im bored..ppl..i wun b bloggin for sum tym n i wun b online oso..haish...chavious...

2004-12-13T15:10:00.000-08:00

hOller at me guyZz~...

im bOred..but im ok.yeah..im ok..haish..im not gonna shed anymore tears k.i juz got back frm aunty liz's hse.slept der wif momma.slept in e guest rm..ehem..which..eventually will becum my rm or my prnts' rm in future..*ehem*..hahaz.it was my dream hse kies.bOotifuL..hahaz.insya'allah..okies..juz let me update wad happen for e past few days kies..

11th Dec 2004..
yeahness!!i managed to persuade mom n dad to let me go to the hiphop fest..musa will be gettin me in for FrEe..hahaz..sary called me early in e mornin..i was dreamin of my dreamboy n boy A da!kacau daun jek..hahaz..so i lazily answered e fon..yadayadayada..i siaped2..after gettin permission frm mom n dad.mom asked me to be back b4 12..ceh.mcm cinderella gitu ehk..hahaz..okok..den i aked musa n alfa to wait at tamp mrt..at 1pm but i was freakin late.i tot i was..i got out of hm kul 1pm.den took taxi..urgh..sari lom sampai pon..ish..i cud hv juz taken e bus..save duit aku..hehe..bother..den sary came..hair braided..by fifi.she was frm fi's hse..okok..den we boarded e train..turon kat tamp..met musa n alfa..alfa was kinda shocked to see me wif my hair curled..hahahz..den aisyah n 2 frens met us oso..together we took e train...blablabla ek..hehe..okok..at der..many cute guys..i was firz attracted to dis guy hu was wearin shades..like my bro's n i was wearin it..we called him mr curly coz he was wearin dis baggy baju wif e name curly behind it..den sary was goin goo goo gaga over him..hahaz..amek lah..den my eyes eyed to...dis guy in green..but aisyah was goin goo goo gaga over him lak..hahaz..kena ptg jln lar..hahaz..jkjk..he's cute..both of em were cute..but after awhile..i got 2 choices..hahahaz..one was in red..e other in square pants..saw rauzan n daniel but dey aint my type lar..rauzan a lil bit "sOm" but he still smiled at me...ahahz..daniel..CUTE..cutegilerbabz.den den den...eyes turned to dis mr square pants..hahaz.cute sak dier joget..he was dancin or letmesay.."bouncin" infrnt of me..e place was gettin more n more kecohrable wen too phat cam out..esp toophat lar..okokies..etcetc..we left pretty late..very late..e laz bus left.leavin us nth to board...!!!argh!!!help..hahaz..was at e busstop den mrsquare pants n frens came over..hangin ard der..den dey board bus 51..hahaz..den e mrsquareD pants waved at me...argh..sho cute..hahahz. tk leh angkat sak..hahaz..giler zati!!..i was lookin at e top deck of e bus den sumehow i looked at e exit door..n der he was..his frens naik e tangga den he stOod der n waved at me..i was like..huh??..den i smiled lar..nk wave alek paiseh..hahahaz...LoL..okok..we alek naik taxi..e kind uncle was like pretty sure of whr to go,..the fastest way to get to 3 destinations..2 stops at tamp n 1 at psr..aisyah chipped in 22..gosh.naseb enuff sak..wif e midnyt charge lagi..tsktsktsk..reached my blk..genaP2 $21..phew..close shave..so aisyah..remind me to give u $7 k...21 divide by 3=7..kk..btol..hehe..reached hm kul 1+am....almoz to 2am...got changed..den wen to bed..received call...from.......my adek angkat..haFiz!!!!wEee..my value was fweakin low but i still answered the fon...yeahness..i mish my adek sia...

adek:helo..kak zati eh?
me:helo..yah me here..ader aper
adek:tkde..saje je..akak tgh uat ape
me:akak bru baring..den adek kol..
adek:..oh ok..sorry2..akak tak klua??akak tk borinG??
me:baru alek dek...penat..
adek:eh..p ane?
me:hiphop fest...
adek:kat ane uh?
me:kat clarke quay,honglim park..sbla clarke quay mrt station..
adek: oh ok...
me:...dek..akak nye prepaid low uh..sorry k...
adek:oh ok...kk..sorry2..byez...
me:byes...[ZzzZzzzZzz]

haiya adek..i noe u dun use e comp much n u wun be readin dis but still i wanna make a "confession"...i miss u lar!!!!..miss hangin out wif yar..miss all e laughters n jOkes...i miss all my fwens precisely...haish...dats all for e date 11th dEc 2004.....

12th Dec 2004..
wen to aunty liz hse at clementi.took taxi..nth much to update here k...e best part is dat..sleepin in e guest rm..nice siol...hahaz..wad more can i wryt??seriously nth much happened..did e usual stuff everytym we go der..play wif e kitties,layan e kids..watch tv..same ol stuff...hahaz......i aint gonna shed a tear for u...

ok lar..gues dat's all abt it..chavious.............
im ok..i guess so...

2004-12-13T12:39:00.000-08:00

hOlla ppl..hOlla back at me..:p

okies..im stuck at hm again.as usual.in e mood to do hw but i cnt do it alone..need help frm fwens.my beloved fwens.rep,yas,an is back frm k.l..safely..alhamdulillah..huda n hin..lom alek2 lagi..sarah..dunno wen goin to kl lak..haiyah..izza busy wif makcik's weddin preparatiOn[kalo salah spell jgn marah..asl leh type jek]..n me??stuck at hm doin nth..hey waits!i got plans for my beloved momma's bdae kies!!!okok..let me list down wad are e tings dat i need...hmmmzzz.....

1.birthDay caKe..black forest her fave..hmmz..=$20..[@ loyang pt]
2.LiLies for her..[yg ni..i go survey for my dad..ask him to buy..hehe..]
3.birthday card specially made by me n siblings..[includin ain kies!!LoL]
4.e whole family....got to be together...

i'll be comin up wif more plans..i'm oways plannin tings for e family..w/out askin their opinions..hahaz..n yar..it wun work out..but hopefully dis one will...coz it's for our beloved mommy!!hmmz..ohyar..dad bought a new hp n im usin it!!mwahaha..N3120..okies lar..jadi jugak.he insist on usin his 3100..hahaz..it's no difference..juz e casing..n e system blablabla..but im thinkin of tradin it to e panasonice hp i saw at joo chiat..dat hp is cute,small n got camera..:p..hahaz..heyZz!!get back to e plannin..hmmz..ok lar..i gotta discuss dis wif my siblings..esp my elder bro.....chavious...

it's ur bdae...

2004-12-10T23:00:00.000-08:00

hey hensem..it's ur birthday..taufik batisah..happy birthday!!!oh well i noe he wun read dis but hu cares..i remembered..it's his bdae today..hahaz..hehe..

tOday..spent e mornin wif yas n izza.my dearest peeps.den after dat,masing2 alek uma..i wen out wif momma lar..precisely.i spent my day outsyd..kauz..tsktsktsk..hehe..ive got nth much to wryt lar..malas..tho lots of tings happen today..argh bother...okok..before i outs...

all e best dearest bro,TONER n CLOG for tmr's GraFfiti cOmp at hiphOpfesT!!!!!!

weee

2004-12-09T19:20:00.000-08:00

okiews.changed my template.gOthic look.okie.malas nk tukar2 lagi.hmmz.tOday's sTory.very saddenin.hahaz.no lar..i wen out wif my mOm firz to white sands.den meet papa der.after dat,we went to e beach[not my fave place]..papa angkat jaring ketam..e ketam was biG2.so i tried callin syarif's home.cik angkat.phew~okok..cik wanted 2kg.wOw.hehez.standard lar..thanx cik!!*winks* nenek n makngah n kak linda bought ard 3.5kg.blablabla.anione hu wans to buy FRESH crab..msg me ayts..holler at me.hahaz..okok..bibik came over tO sent ain..yadayadayada.papa siaped den GO..we headed home firz..ader hal japs..i did my blog.papa called..2ron bawa.firz stop..arep's hse.cik bukak pintu..oklar..all dis no need to say..hahaz.pas tu..we wen to makngah's hse.nenek,ira n yayul was der..ok gooDie..mak ngah juz came back from South Korea.holiday hOr.she showed us e pix n she said it was very cOld down der..bRr..cun imagine seh.den kiter duduk bersembang kejaP..yasmin msged me..said tmr to meet her n izza at e bus stop kul 9.15am..wEEee!!get to meet my dearest ppl.hehez..oh yar..before we headed to mak ngah's hse,we wen to papa's werk place..at AMK..yar..e HQ..so far ryt??..things happened in e car.i cudnt hold my emosi..pukol ain's hand wen she accidentally tumpah kan e kueh..oh gosh..wads wif me...i realised..i cun hold back my tears for the one that i love...im weak at dat....haish..*shakes head*...
DAMN~! i wun be goin to the hiphop fest dis saturday!!!my bro's in e graffiti comp.kewl ekh..hehe.but he got one free pas for jill...grrr..hehe..jk..aiyah..all e best ayts dearest brO n ur graff partner..CLOG..wen cLog n tOner combines together..fuyOo!!nice babe!!!aLL e beSh!!im still pissed Off..y??coz taufik batisah will be perfOmin der tOo!!!arGh...bother..hahaz..he's sumhow jill's fren's fren.sth like dat lar..kk..holler..gtg..mom callin for me..nitey nyts..cHavIOus

carpediembaby hollers..
den cries...

my firsH pOst..

2004-12-09T00:42:00.000-08:00

mwahaha..count ppl count.how many online journal have i got now??hehe.im craziee.giler.sot.oh well.dat's me ayts.saper tk knal.okies.so dis is muh firz post for my new blog.hahaz.zati zati..tsktsktsk..okies.elmo's asleep.no one to chat wif.im bored.missin my KC peeps..how r u ppL man??rindu babe!!hehe..let's see tmr's schedule.mornin..goin out wif momma to bedok.afternn,goin cyclin wif yas n maman.nytz,got amway discussion at hm.wOw.pretty busy uh tmr.tsktsktsk.tiring man..

oryts..let me juz update wad telah happened today.today..hmmz..alek frm nenek hse.slept der for 2 days wif my craziee kuzzies.kekek sak drg.mcm2.from hougang.i took bus 88 to pasir ris interchange.b4 naik bus 17 i checked my acc.DAMN~!DAMN e deLi HQ..whr's my money u s2pid arshOles.damn u ppl..oops..sori..im juz pissed lar.wen my money goin to be banked into my acc.shitheads.urgh..nvm..k.checked my acc..no $$$..den took bus 17.haish.wen to shop.bought ain sweets.walked hm.mom was usin e comp.den she siaped.i siaped.i used e comp lak.i mish my peeps lar.urgh!!..kk..den ard 3,me n mom headed off to pasir ris mrt station.took e train to redhill.den took taxi to amway hq.wow.nice place man..aunty weiwei was wif us.explainin dis n dat..hmmz..3 more yrs..n im joinin Amway.it seems interestin u noe.promotin,doin sales n gettin income+salary..n being e own boss.wow.can earn big $$$.hehe..kk..den after dat..we wen to clementi.to aunty liz's hse.e kids nOtyet asleep.kecohness.hahaz.i played wif e two lil kitties.meOws.cute.nex week we have to take care of e kittens for aunty liz n family as dey will be goin to canada.yeahness!!i love dis two kitties.sho cute.adorable.hmmz..*thinkin*..if onli one day my bf give me a persian kitten as a present ehk..hahaz.BRANGAN.persian cats/kittens are damn expensive sia...hahaz..
9.50pm..we headed back home.took bus 154.let me tell u dis.we were freezin in dat damn cold bus..bBrr..sejuk giler bab.den i keep msgin papa.kekekness.hahaz.tsktsktsk.hehe..okok.den we dropped at eunos.took taXi back hm n so here i am.after panaskan lauk for my dad..did milo for mom..im here.burnin my arse on e chair n doin dis...=D.hehe..im bored lar.dun bother me.hehe..
oops.gtg..got to do lisa's template lak..chaviOus.

im so farked up

2004-12-08T20:18:00.000-08:00

im so fweakin farked up kies.damn u blog!!!errr!!why is evrything flushed to e left side?!sumone..anione..save my blog!!!haish.im bored.hungry.sleepy.n frustrated.i seriously need help here...haish...plzplzplz..hopefully it doesnt rain.i wanna go cyclin wif maman n yasmin!!!i love cyclin..my dad taught me to cycle wen i was young..so easy..crap.hahaz..der are still adults even teenagers hu dunno how to cycle..dey too nid help!!im craziee.crappin here..hehe..im bored bored bored..okok.gtg.hungry lar.haven had bfaz.eh!!it's lunch time da!!hahaz..chavious................
now im heartbroken....